Train Wreck

What state of mind would you be in if after you spend 20 hours waiting for bread to rise it came out a total disaster. Image you put bread to rise for 18 hours, wake up 5 in the morning (disturb the man) and put bread to rise for 2 more hours....then when you finally put it to bake it looks lovely but is as HARD AS STONE. The sponge (dough) came out exactly as they said it should...nice with all the gluten strands looking all sexy. Then I bake the thing and it just good to cut in small pieces and give out as paper weights for Christmas. My new favourite word is Vendetta. This is my relationship between me and Ciabatta bread and Bagels. Two disasters. I shall not rest until I have them perfected. I think I need counseling. (p.s. this is the debut of my new bowl. after hinting I finally got a donation. teehee)